I know I've already declared this blog dead twice, but blood is thicker than water they say... So before I restart the blog alltogether again, let me first recap the last year. A lot has happened on all fronts - some for the good, some for the worse.
I think here the most has happened. For those who've followed my twitter feed and have read my programming blog might have picked up some about it. July last year my psych thought I might also have a bipolar disorder. This was confirmed that next month, when I was about to walk away from everything and step out of it. I realize that was a stupid thing to do, and luckily I'm under treatment now for both my Asperger's syndrome and bipolar disorder (no direct for my ADD, because of my intolerance of medication) For the bipolar disorder I'm on medication (Depakine) on a very low dosage (600mg a day while 2500-3000mg a day is 'normal' for my weight), because the psych ordered a DNA research, which showed that I'm 'low metabolic' for most anti-psychotics and thus need a very low dosage (this also explains why I went into a psychosis from the ritalin back in 2012).
I'm happy to report that the medication is doing wonders to my moods and my psych is keeping a close eye on the moods as well. I'm also happy to say that my 'mood swing curve' is pretty stable at around 4-5 months, meaning that whenever I'm sliding towards a depression (just got out of one), I can start on the anti-deprssives that I have.
Nothing much to report here I think. I still suffer from the Osteoarthritis in my knees and at times it aches so much that I need a cane to walk (which I refuse most of the time and just limb around a bit ). Same goes for the B12 deficiency I have, for which I still get supplemented every other week.
On the other hand though, there are some side effects from the Depakine that I'm taking (even on this low dosage !!), which include diziness and being lightheaded. My psych thinks I might suffer from low blood pressure as side effect (something I am already familiar with), and coming Monday I have an appointment with my doctor (for the B12 suppletion) to check it. There's no real reason to be alarmed though, because I haven't fainted yet
The lawsuit - I'VE WON!
Yes, that's right. November last year I've had a hearing (again) at the UWV because I appealed for the dismissal of my invalidity social security allowance (WIA) for my work as a mailman. Luckily, the one who was handling my file was sick (again as my lawyer told me) and someone picked it up for him. She re-reviewed my file, saw the error that was made and reinstated my WIA allowance again by declaring me 68.62% unfit for work (which is actually a loss of income I'd have). This was early January, 4 days before the hearing at court. Of course, I went through with the hearing because there were still a couple of things that were not quite right yet. That hearing I lost, but the lawsuit was won
Now there are 2 next steps in the whole process:
1. I've gone to the High Court because the judge didn't make a final ruling on one of the points we brought up, which it's a very important one. Sadly though, this might take a year or 2 before anything comes from it
2. I've filed an other lawsuit for rejecting my appeal for the mailman part. Unlike the previous lawsuit, in this one the medication I'm taking has to be taken into account, and my lawyer and I think that they didn't do that as well as they should. And of course, the point above will be filed for as well.
If either one will come through, chances are that I'll be fully unfit for work (which, according to my opinion, I sadly am).
Now about gaming
Sadly, I've given up on PC gaming completely. The way I need to sit to control keyboard and mouse are too fatiguing for me Instead, I've bought a Playstation 4 Pro late January and amd enjoying the thing a lot! And with it's build-in streaming functions I'm streaming my games from time to time. My brother also has bought a PS4Pro only recently and we're playing a lot of games in co-op mode during the evenings for a couple of hours. The fun stuf that we encounter while playing I normally save and upload to my YouTube channel for all to watch and enjoy. I'll also be using my YouTube channel to stream as well (whenever I'm feeling good enough that is).